I know you often wonder why it had happened and why you have to live with the weight of certain things. I know you wish to make a change and try your best to live a good life. I know you tell yourself it’s going to be alright but have difficulty believing your own words. I didn’t say a name yet these lines resonated with almost all of you. Almost each one of you found yourself in it and felt as though I’m talking about you; to you.
Doesn’t this say something? It sure does. This means you are not alone.
What a beautiful thing it is that we’re all in this together. It might seem like you are alone but if only you could hear the thoughts of others the way you hear their voices, you’d know that wondering, failing, struggling, falling, getting back up, doubting, and doing it all over again is just as common as breathing. We’re all doing it and dealing with this thing called life in our own weird ways. Too bad the struggle is internal and our eyes fail to recognize it. We have convinced ourselves to mask it all and have made sadness seem like a crime; you can’t be sad in public, you can’t let anyone see your struggle, and you can’t talk about it out loud.
“Shhh! Suffer alone and be sad in private, that’s brave” you’ve been taught.
That’s brave, that courageous and shows maturity, isn’t it? NO.
Being sad is as normal as being happy. Doubting yourself is as normal as appreciating your victories. And breaking down is as normal as laughing your heart out. So stop torturing yourself for having flaws and stop poking at your dark parts or even worse trying to live as though they don’t exist. C’mon! You are a human — a wild living thing, not some delusional unicorn dripping with perfection.
And if you feel like you are failing and aren’t truly living or making the most of your life, know that there’s no perfect road map to living life. The mere fact that there are a million thoughts originating from you and running through your mind, a thousand words falling out of your mouth, hundreds of voices you are connected to, is enough proof that you are full of life and truly alive. You are living life just the way it’s meant to be lived.
Who made you believe that life was supposed to be a perfect fairytale and minds were supposed to be empty and hearts intact? Who said you are supposed to spend all your years tuning out imperfections and aiming to build a perfect little bubble to live in? Who plotted you against this beautiful thing called ‘life’ that you blame it for all the real things it offers? Think about it and you might realize that you aren’t supposed to be fighting so hard. While you are out there thinking you suck at living this life, you are actually living it just the right way — you are living your story. When you realize that your life isn’t something that needs to be filled with achievements and you only need to accept whatever comes your way, learn, grow and breathe, you will quit trying to MAKE a perfect life and understand you already HAVE a beautiful life. It can’t be tuned to perfection because the world’s idea of a perfect life is quite unrealistic and it brings nothing but toxicity to your mind and body. I know I’m trying too hard to defy the odds and change your perspective but I hope you got what I’m trying to say (at least a little).
Now, wouldn’t you believe me if I said that you aren’t alone and you aren’t abnormal or weak for feeling clueless about your life?
Because the truth is this is how it’s meant to be but sadly, we’ve been conditioned to believe otherwise.
You are supposed to be clueless so life can surprise you. You can’t choose what life throws at you; you can only rejoice in its goodness, wallow a little in the dark parts, learn from it and grow.