“I’m enough,” you tell yourself first thing in the morning because someone on youtube has told you to practice self-love with affirmations
You say it and get out of your bed feeling ready for the day
You end the day feeling clueless and yet again, you go to sleep feeling ‘not enough’
What is wrong, why is there no change and why do my efforts seem to go in vain, you ask yourself. Like every other night, you chose to shove it all aside and sleep or spend hours thinking about everything. You have convinced yourself that those are the only two ways to deal with it and do nothing but push yourself to find some energy to face tomorrow.
But maybe, just telling yourself you are enough every morning isn’t enough. Maybe you need to actually believe it and maybe that’ll take you longer than those few minutes of affirming in the morning. Maybe because you say and don’t really believe it, throughout the day your mind and body are forced to look for validation everywhere you go and in everything you do. It’s a cycle that you are oblivious to. You look for it in the eyes of a stranger passing by and even a slightly different look from anyone makes you want to check yourself in the mirror. You look for it in the emails flooding your inbox and hope to find some words of appreciation from your higher officials.
You try to find it in the rising digits of your bank account, in the fancy collection flooding your closet, in the flashy pictures clicked in nightclubs and in likes and comments from strangers. You search for it in the words falling out your beloved’s mouth and more so dig for it in his/her actions every day. You fail to see it all and end your day believing it isn’t there. It’s time you understand that enough doesn’t mean perfect. Enough isn’t a standard that needs to be achieved or chased. Enough is acceptance. Enough is the thing only you can give to yourself; it needs your attention and support. A rare feeling that can be found only in you.
No person, accomplishment, place or thing can make you feel enough. Nothing can convince you to let the burden off your shoulders; the burden of expectations piled up whilst looking for validation in all the wrong places. You have to do it for yourself and it’s not a hard thing. It’s not a responsibility but a need; something as natural as feeding yourself with your own hands every day. Saying and believing you are enough is a very personal thing; don’t see it as a task that needs a reminder or a routine, it is something beautifully divine and very personal to you as a person.
Shift your idea of ‘enough means perfection and validation’ to ‘enough means acceptance and celebration of my rawness’ and I promise you won’t go to sleep feeling ‘not enough’.
Please don’t just read this and forget, the purpose of this post will be met only when you practice it. Let’s take it one step at a time. Start off by saving a part of this post in your notepad, the part that you liked the most and maybe take some time to act on it. Also, I’d love to know how it helped you.
Thank you for reading.
Love and light,